So, I am, as usual, struggling with this wait. I really can't complain because we are going for our ultrasound way sooner than anticipated but the wait is painful all the same. I have been feeling great, which makes me worried. I no longer have the headache that has been a constant since 5dp3dt. I no longer have an upset tummy and I certainly don't have sore tatas. Today I was busy cleaning the house (my cousin is coming to stay) and I didn't even need a nap after all of the scrubbing, mopping and vacuuming. I am not even peeing a lot! It makes me wonder what is going on inside of me. I know if I have the pleasure of morning sickness I will wish it all back but for now it would be comforting. Yesterday I poas and I freaked out! At first there was only one line and it was such a shock because even at 9dp3dt the two lines came up immediately. So I waited for 3 minutes and then I saw a very faint, and I mean faint, second line. This obviously still freaked me out but then I realized the faint line was the control line (I called the 1800 number to make sure). Actually hubby even peed on the stick to make sure the line that I had wasn't the control line (not a proud moment). So here I am waiting for an ultra sound and my body is giving me no indication that anything is going on inside of me. By the way a couple of days ago I had some very dark veins in my breasts and they seem to have disappeared. I hope I either imagined those lines or that it means nothing.
Anyways, on to my next, less neurotic, part of the post. I am just curious when people have told close friends and family they were pregnant. I know it is super early but I am very tempted to tell some very close people. I have told my sister (obviously because she is very invested) and my parents. I am just wondering when we tell people who are close to us but not immediate family. Hubby thinks Thursday would be appropriate, when we see the gestational sac (please god!!). I agree with him that I can't wait until we are 3 months (although that is what I know most people do) but is Thursday too early? Should we wait until we see a heart beat (please, please, let that happen)? Obviously I am not going to go announce it over facebook (now or ever) but what about our closest friends and extended family. Just curious when you girls told? My feeling is that if anything bad happens, it isn't going to make it any more or less difficult if we have told those closest to us. If anything it will make them understand what we are going through even more. They will literally have to visit me in the mental hospital if ANYTHING goes wrong, so why shouldn't I tell them. If it sounds like I am trying to convince you that now is as good as a time as any, it is because I am trying to convince myself it is okay to allow myself this pleasure. It will be the first time in my life I can say anything positive as far as our journey to conceive I just want to make the announcement too early.