Friday, July 8, 2011

Still PMSing

So I am still cramping, especially in my ovaries (which seems odd because I didn't stim) but also in my uterus. My stomach is less upset (no more explosive diarrhea) although I am still having very regular visits to the bathroom (Sorry TMI). My mouth is still seriously dry and I am so bloated I can't even button my pants. I can't imagine that this can be pregnancy symptoms but I am trying to keep some tiny bit of hope in my heart. I also don't have an appetite at all (just like right before my period because I am too bloated to eat anything). I know that most pregant women can't stop eating in very early pregnancy. Plus my boobs don't hurt at all, no change in fullness, no twitching nipple, absolutlely nothing. Another thing that is worrying me is that I seem to have more energy today than I have had in a long time. Today is the first day that I woke up without struggle and had a bit of a bounce in my step. This seems weird because if my body is really working to create life wouldn't I be exhausted?
On a final note, I am terrified to go to the bathroom. I just know that when I look down I will see blood and my heart can't handle it. Rationally I know I can't have my period yet because I had my last lupron shot on June 16 (the dosage they give me lasts at least 28 days). This means it can't come until at least next Thursday but who knows. Remember, people told me last time that I couldn't get my period while on Progesterone suppositories and I started mine 6dp3dt. By the way don't you think it is ironic that my PMS symptoms started literally a week before I am supposed to get my period (according to my progesterone shot) and they are exactly the same as my regular PMS symptoms?
I know what anyone reading this is saying "Stop Analyzing Symptoms!" but that just isn't possible. Other people might have more will power than me but I am just weak!


  1. Thinking of you - hang in there!!! And stop analyzing symptoms! :) Sorry, couldn't resist...

  2. During my short experience being pregnant I had no appetite at all. I didn't want to eat.

    I agree with Alex: stop analyzing symptoms. Just enjoy being in the moment.

  3. I really hope you are wrong.
    I guess we just ahve to see.
    I will tell you I didn't ahve any of the typical symptoms in my first two weeks, so who knows?
    Thinking of you!

  4. I found out a couple weeks ago that I was pregnant and I was/am having some of those symptoms.

    Dry mouth, cramps, loss of appetite, bloating, visting the bathroom with "issues"...I would say there is still a possibility!

  5. First off, thank you for your comment on my blog.

    I hate what a mind f&*K infertility is. I am so sorry that you are going through the limbo right now. With each of my cycles, the symptoms were never the same. Heck, last time I didn't even know I was pg until it was all over.

    Thinking of you, and hoping that the universe is finally ready to smile on you!

  6. I am right with you with the spotting and with the lack of obvious symptoms. I'm trying not to right-off the cycle just yet.

    I am also terrified to go to the bathroom.

  7. Thinking about you.....hanging there!

  8. ugh, I hate this 'waiting/in the middle' part. Thinking of you!

  9. I'm not going to say what I want to say about symptoms (or the lack thereof) and the total mind F that all of that entails. I will just say I'm thinking of you- I'm hoping for you- and I'm staying positive for you because believe me, I know that sometimes that's impossible for us to do for ourselves. So there, you don't need to stay positive now if you don't want to- I'll do it for you.

  10. Anyone having gone through this would not rationally tell you to stop analyzing. We are all hoping and waiting with you for the best possible outcome. I know that feeling all too well (4 years worth) about going to the bathroom and just waiting for the ball to drop. I've even done that throughout my whole pregnancy-that's how we lost our first son and even now I still look to see if I am bleeding.

    Hugs and love your way!

  11. I am constantly checking for an update and rooting for you two. I so hope this is it for you guys.