Monday, December 6, 2010

The ridiculousness continues

Why am I so crazy.......okay don't answer that.....haha. Last night I don't think I slept for even a second. If I slept my regular way on my tummy I thought I was squishing the embies, then when I rolled on my side I figured they were going into my tubes, finally I ended up on my back which there is no way that I was going to sleep that way. I just can't "relax"! I thought being at school would allow me to stop thinking about the embies but I just kept running different scenarios through my head. I need a freakin hobby. Actually I had a go at online poker to get my mind off things but I was too busy googling a million different IVF searches that it just wasn't fun. I also started a new book that is great but I keep finding myself daydreaming.
For those of you who have done IVF before please tell me that this obsessing stops!!!! I am now convinced that my bleeding cervix is a sign of an infection that has spread to my uterus.

6 comments:

  1. Oh sweetie, you're not the first person to be completely obsessed and neurotic about your embies. I don't have personal experience, but I've watched many others go through this time! Hang in there, and definitely find something to occupy your time! :) and remind me of this next week when I'm in the same boat... :)

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  2. I know - it's awful. We make ourselves totally crazy! Just try to stay busy...it makes the time go faster.

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  3. Back away from the google!!! What is done is done now and there is no point searching for signs. I know it is hard to relax... I know exactly how you feel but you just have to try your best to stay pre-occupied. I find doing multiple things at once works well. Like watch tv and read a magazine. Thinking of your embies!

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  4. sorry, never been through IVF, so can't help you out, but hoping you get through it without going crazy!

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  5. I really recommend relaxation/meditation CDs to help you fall asleep. You need your sleep. The embies need you to sleep, too! At least 30 minutes before your bedtime shut off the tv, the computer, the black.berry, the i.phone. Everything. Take our a book that's not a thriller, can be kinda boring. Really. Start to quiet your mind. Then listen to the CD. Hopefully it will do a "body scan" where you imagine each part of your body relaxing bit by bit, starting at your feet and working your way up (or the other way). Take lots of deep breaths.

    All the best...

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  6. i wish i could help you, but um, no... the insanity doesn't stop. each day it continues... try to breathe deep :-)

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