This blog is a place for me to vent about my day to day experiences related to my fertility/infertilty struggle.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
My dirty little secret!
Monday, September 24, 2012
Weekend Away!
Well I think I am one of the very few mothers of twins that can say they had an entire weekend away without their 7 month old twins. It was great to get away but I missed the boys like crazy. Of course I knew they were in amazing hands with my sister and mom but I still missed their smiling faces. They are at such a fun stage and it is hard to miss a moment. It was however great to spend time with friends, eat some leisurely meals, and even sleep in. I feel like G and I have lots of time together at home but it is much different when you are away. We stayed at a gorgeous Inn for the weekend where Graham was the Best Man at our good friends' wedding. It was a lovely wedding with all of our closest friends attending. The Inn is located 2 hours from our house and it is right on a beautiful lake. The bride and groom decided to forgo the honeymoon suite for a bigger double room so they gave it to us. They even insisted on paying for both nights (they said it included in their wedding package). We enjoyed our time away but were very excited to get back to the boys. I think the boys are sick of mommy hugging them because I can't help but squeeze them all of the time since I have been home. The best part of everything is that my mom and sister followed my "schedule" to a t and the boys came home right on track. There literally hasn't even been one hiccup since we have been home. This is a big contrast to our visit to my in-laws cottage.
In other exciting news my baby Fynn is crawling, that's right crawling. He had been rocking for a couple of days and even took a few "steps" crawling but now he can crawl all the way to whatever object he desires. He doesn't do it all of the time but he can when he wants to. I am so screwed......lol!
Monday, September 17, 2012
Seven Months
Fynn on the left and Hudson on the right Happy Hudson talking away
Naked time before bath time
Fynn getting ready to take off!
Well we've had another great month my boys! Again we had a lot of firsts and this parenting thing continues to change on a daily basis. You boys are a LOT more active and you keep me on my toes. Gone are the days of napping in your car seats (did that used to happen) and being happy spending more than an hour stilling in your stroller. Now you are happier moving, stretching and playing. Thank goodness for naps and an early bedtime or mommy wouldn't be able to keep up.
Fynn
Holy cow Mr. Finnister you are a busy guy. It is nearly impossible to change your diaper these days because you literally NEVER want to stay still. You roll like crazy and grab anything that is within reach. You have decided that you are ready to crawl and although you haven't actually done a propper step forward you are able to get up on all fours. Generally you shift back and forth a couple of times before you squirm backwards. Unfortunately that gets you further away from whatever object you are trying to get to so you get frustrated. Your whining is getting better but there is a reason we lovingly call you Finicky Fynn.
This month you also got your first two teeth. Wow, I couldn't believe it when Dr. G pointed out that you were cutting a bottom tooth. It turns out that it was actually two teeth that were coming in at the same time. You look so grown up with your two new little chiclets. It also feels like one of your top teeth might be in soon too and I bet that changes your look once again. I am not sure if you were any fussier than your usual self. You did had a couple of nights were you woke up 2 times throughout the night but we aren't sure if that was because of your teeth or if it was just coincidence.
You now LOVE your jolly jumper. That's right even after all of the physical therapy warnings mommy lets you jump in a jumper. You love it and beam from ear to ear. You are so proud of yourself and it is great to see you so happy.
The one thing you don't love to do is sit. You are actually pretty sturdy when mommy places you in the sitting position and you can stay up for 5 or more minutes (then you loose your focus and dive forward). You never try to get yourself into the sitting position and when you are walking holding my fingers and I try to sit you down you stiffen your legs and refuse to sit. I think if you could you would stand at all times. You love walking with my fingers and mommy is worried you will be an early walker (your cousin walked at 9 months and that scares mommy a lot!). Although you aren't pulling up on things at all so maybe we have a while before we have to get ready for that.
You are getting increasingly vocal, especially in the morning and before bath time. You yelp and laugh and I love hearing you and your brother throughout the house.
You have found your smile my boy and it comes out so much more often. You have even smiled at a stranger or two....lol
Hudson
It has been so much fun watching you continue to be more outgoing and vocal this month. You have caught up to your brother in all areas and it looks like you might be the first one to crawl. You are constantly up on all fours and ready to move. You have taken one or two "steps" forward in the crawling position but then come crashing down. You just smile and then try it again. Like your brother it is almost impossible to change your diaper because you can't stay still. You roll and squirm and you guys are way too strong to be babies.
You also got your first tooth this month. It is on the bottom and it feels like more are soon to follow. You are such a little trooper and we barely even saw the signs of any discomfort caused by the new tooth. One night you woke up a couple of times with a little whimper but were quickly soothed with a cuddle and some tylenol. Mommy has been giving you some pain relief medicine nightly before bed just in case for the past two nights.
Like your brother you aren't very interested in sitting. You are okay in the highchair and in mommy's lap but you aren't too sturdy on your own yet. When mommy sets you up like a tripod, using your arms to stabilize you, you can sit for a couple of minutes but eventually you topple over. You don't seem comfortable but we keep working on it. We are doing a ton of tummy time and you get stronger every day.
You are still my smily guy and I love seeing you so happy all of the time. You love your daddy and he makes you laugh so hard, it is hilarious. You love "talking" to your brother and whenever you get a chance you man handle him. You love to explore and you grab everything. Your favourite thing to explore lately is faces and you aren't gentle....lol. Mommy has had to make sure your nails are trimmed so that you don't hurt any of us. You also LOVE to pull hair. Mommy is sporting a bun now most of the time but when she forgets she gets a quick reminder.
I love you my beautiful boys and I can't wait to see what this month has in store for us!
Mommy's Night out!
I had my first night out since having the boys on Saturday night and I am just now STARTING to get back into the swing of things. Don't get me wrong I have gone to a couple of movies and dinner with my husband (which were nice) but Saturday night was my first night out with the girls. It was also the first time I participated in adult drinks (lots of them), dancing, and even a stripper (yuck). It was my girlfriend's stagette and we had a blast. The only problem when you are a mommy and you drink is that you are on duty the next day. It isn't your childrens fault that you were letting loose the night before and they don't get that you have a pounding headache. Was it worth it?...........heck yeah........will I do it again soon?........not on your life!
Friday, September 7, 2012
We have a tooth, and it's a boy!
Yesterday we went to our first appointment with our new pediatrician and it went very well. Not sure if I mentioned it before but I strongly dislike my previous pediatrician. He made off colored jokes (usually I don't mind some but not in a professional setting) and crossed the line about my sister being our egg donor (asked hubby if my sister was hot and then said they should have just got a hotel room and saved all of the expense). The boys are doing well and a lot the little concerns are clearing up (they had some fluid in their testicals and Fynn had a bit of a hernia). Then he asked me if they had any teeth and I quickly responded no. Well insert foot in mouth because sure enough my baby boy Fynn indeed has his first tooth poking through. I guess I thought it would be bigger or more apparent. The boys wiggle so much and barely stay still for a second so it is difficult to get a good look in their mouth. I have felt around and thought I felt some harder spots but then thought nothing of it. Anyway, just a sliver of the tooth is showing and I am so excited for him. I know I say it way too much but these guys are really growing up.
In other news my sister in law (hubby's brother's wife) is pregnant and due in January. Lord knows how anyone keeps a secret as long as they did (she was 16 weeks before they announced it) but she found out today she will be having a boy. Side note, they got pregnant the second month they were trying (bitch....lol). This is great news but I won't lie I was kind of hoping for a girl. I know every child is amazing and all of that unicorn and fairy dust shit but it would have worked out so well for me. That's right, it's all about me.....lol. Clearly I will love my nephew and it will be great to have another playmate and family member for my boys. However,on hubby's side there are no girls. His father is an only child, his father's father was an only child, hubby has two brothers, we have the two boys and then their is one nephew . So let's just say that side needs a little estrogen. I was so hoping to soften those men up just a a little bit. I guess in a perfect world I could have another baby and this time it would be a girl.....yeah right.
6 month check up (our appointment was 2 weeks late) Fynn 17.2 pounds
Hudson 16.4 pounds
In other news my sister in law (hubby's brother's wife) is pregnant and due in January. Lord knows how anyone keeps a secret as long as they did (she was 16 weeks before they announced it) but she found out today she will be having a boy. Side note, they got pregnant the second month they were trying (bitch....lol). This is great news but I won't lie I was kind of hoping for a girl. I know every child is amazing and all of that unicorn and fairy dust shit but it would have worked out so well for me. That's right, it's all about me.....lol. Clearly I will love my nephew and it will be great to have another playmate and family member for my boys. However,on hubby's side there are no girls. His father is an only child, his father's father was an only child, hubby has two brothers, we have the two boys and then their is one nephew . So let's just say that side needs a little estrogen. I was so hoping to soften those men up just a a little bit. I guess in a perfect world I could have another baby and this time it would be a girl.....yeah right.
6 month check up (our appointment was 2 weeks late) Fynn 17.2 pounds
Hudson 16.4 pounds
Saturday, August 25, 2012
What's in a Name
So, this week I got a shocking and less than positive email from my mother-in-law. Apparently she has been stewing over something terrible I had done. She went on a rant for two full paragraphs about why she is so upset with me. So here it is, I referred to her ex husband's "girlfriend" as Grandma. I posted a picture on Facebook of Hubby's dad with his "girlfriend" and captioned it "grandpa and grandma" because that's what we call them. That's right, how dare I. Let me start by saying that this "girlfriend" has been in the picture for 18 years and has been amazing with the boys since the day they were born. She has cooked, cleaned and come to stay (things my mother-in-law did not do). I actually like my mother-in-law and have been more than happy with her hands off approach. She too loves the boys but in a different way. She doesn't drive and has a group of very close friends that have been there to spend time with and support her since her divorce. Let's just say she is still bitter about the divorce. I am actually not sure why, she left him and she hates him so it isn't as if she wants him back. I wish she would get over it and move forward. I guess the reason it is still so painful is because they JUST made the final settlement. When the initial divorce and support was decided they agreed that it would be reassessed when Hubby's dad retired. Needless to say he just retired so it has been ugly. She says he was hiding money and he said she was bleeding him dry. Anyways, he will continue to support her until the day she dies so she is set (so I am not sure why she is so angry).
The email basically told me that "the girlfriend" let's call her N is nothing to Fynn and Hudson. She doesn't share a last name or any blood relation. She said N was a disgusting person to allow us to call her Grandma because she has her own "real" grandchildren. It makes me sick. If she really loved the boys wouldn't she be happy that they had more people who cared about them. Furthermore, since she isn't able to help me out (she is legally blind, smokes heavily, has bad knees, and is pretty overweight) isn't she happy that someone is. Let me clarify that N was not in the picture until after Mother in law and father in law divorced. She has never said one bad thing about my mother in law and she highly respects the relationship my husband and his brothers have with their mother. She would feel terrible if she knew she had caused any strife at all. Mother in law also said that if she finds out my three year old nephew has ever called N grandma she will have a corinary (I guess she better call the paramedics). I also annoys because the boys will get the situation when they are old enough. Of course they will know that Mother in law is hubby's mom and that N isn't. They will see the relationship we have with each family member and have a bond with them individually.
I didn't really know how to respond to the email, hubby said to pretend it never happened. He said that it was crazy and didn't deserve to be responded to. I just responded that I was sorry it hurt her feelings and it wasn't my intentions. Then I explained that the boys love her and that she has a special bond with them. Gosh, I never anticipated things to progress like this.
By the way, to add fuel to the fire. Mother in law used one of my pictures on facebook as her profile picture and edited one of the boys out of it. You heard that correctly. She chose the grandson that she thinks looks like her, and that she favors and cut the other one out of the picture. Um, that is disgusting. I guess she is trying to get my reaction!
The email basically told me that "the girlfriend" let's call her N is nothing to Fynn and Hudson. She doesn't share a last name or any blood relation. She said N was a disgusting person to allow us to call her Grandma because she has her own "real" grandchildren. It makes me sick. If she really loved the boys wouldn't she be happy that they had more people who cared about them. Furthermore, since she isn't able to help me out (she is legally blind, smokes heavily, has bad knees, and is pretty overweight) isn't she happy that someone is. Let me clarify that N was not in the picture until after Mother in law and father in law divorced. She has never said one bad thing about my mother in law and she highly respects the relationship my husband and his brothers have with their mother. She would feel terrible if she knew she had caused any strife at all. Mother in law also said that if she finds out my three year old nephew has ever called N grandma she will have a corinary (I guess she better call the paramedics). I also annoys because the boys will get the situation when they are old enough. Of course they will know that Mother in law is hubby's mom and that N isn't. They will see the relationship we have with each family member and have a bond with them individually.
I didn't really know how to respond to the email, hubby said to pretend it never happened. He said that it was crazy and didn't deserve to be responded to. I just responded that I was sorry it hurt her feelings and it wasn't my intentions. Then I explained that the boys love her and that she has a special bond with them. Gosh, I never anticipated things to progress like this.
By the way, to add fuel to the fire. Mother in law used one of my pictures on facebook as her profile picture and edited one of the boys out of it. You heard that correctly. She chose the grandson that she thinks looks like her, and that she favors and cut the other one out of the picture. Um, that is disgusting. I guess she is trying to get my reaction!
Saturday, August 18, 2012
6 months
I seem to have drooled on my pants The cutest Woody and Buzz ever
Holy cow, I can't believe it has been 6 months since I had my guys. I remember thinking how huge 6 month olds looked when I first had the boys and now they are the big guys. This month has been a fun one and I loved getting to know my boys more this month. You now go to sleep between 6-6:30 pm and generally have one wake up (boo to the cottage ordeal or you would still be sleeping through the night) and then are up for the day between 6-7am. You eat between 6-8 of formula per feeding and two bowls of rice cereal mixed with either yummy sweet potato and yellow squash.
It has been bittersweet month but one that I will cherish. Bitter because I know I will never get to have a newborn again and sweet because of all the exciting developments my boys have had. I have loved my boys from the moment I met them but as I get to know them more the love gets deeper because I don't just love them because they are my babies, I love who they are and the experiences we have shared.
Don't mess with my bro
Fynn
You my boy have had a great month. You have settled down and you have really mastered this napping thing. Mommy actually thinks that you need more sleep than she had originally anticipated and the more naps you have the better your awake time is. You go down for naps and bedtime easily now and you sleep in the most adorable position (butt in the air), Mommy thinks that you get more sleep now because you are a tummy sleeper and when you used to sleep on your back you just weren't comfortable. You sure do travel now in your sleep. You literally move from one side of the crib to the other. Sometimes mommy moves you in the night because you look uncomfortable but you move right back to where you were. For some reason you like to have your face pressed against the bars or squished into your crib sheet. It is so adorable when you wake up and your face has little wrinkles from being pressed against things. You have also learned to turn your aquarium on when you are up from your nap and sometims mommy finds you laying in your crib just watching the fish swim by.
It is funny to think that just 2 short months ago I worried that you weren't playing in your excersaucer, now you take that thing prisoner. You play with it with such enthusiasm and excitement. You smile from ear to ear and you attack it. You can't decide which toy to play with first so you just go for them all. It is quite a site and it is impossible to watch without grinning.
You continue to be vocal but luckily for us now it is cooing, laughing and happy sounds. No longer do you whine (as much) and you love to tell us stories. You screech with excitement and I love it.
We had a set back this month when we visited Grampa's cottage. Our routine was off and one night you literally didn't sleep all night. By the time we got home we were all exhausted and we had to start getting our routine back on track. It literally took 2 full weeks to get back to normal and now you are back to only one wake up in the night. Mommy is not in any hurry to travel again but we will make up for that in a couple of years, Let's not even talk about "the poop saga|" that happened on the way home, I think daddy is scarred for life.
You love to stand my boy and your legs are soooo strong. We joke that you look like a little baby bodybuilder. You can stand on your own for about five seconds holding onto something for balance but then you tilt over. When given fingers to balance I think you could stand all day! You are also working very hard to crawl and you can travel from one side of the play mat to the other but it isn't exactly crawling. You actually use your head in the process and it is unbelievable to see. You don't have much interest in sitting but when mommy props you up you can sit for about 20 seconds with no assistance, then you dive forward or straighen up trying to stand up. Mommy is quickly realizing how much trouble she is in when you and your brother can move.
You also love to reach out and grab things and to be tickled. You knock everything in site over and you laugh loud and hard and it is pretty hilarious!
I love you Fynn and I am so lucky to be your mom. We have found our groove and I really get a kick out of you. Thanks for saving most of your smiles for me, they literally fill my heart.
Nothing like a bath on the dock!
Fynn is Fly!
Hudson
Wow, bubba what a month for you. You are no longer our quiet little observer. You are fiesty and full of life and energy. Your legs literally don't stop moving from the time you wake up. Actually you even kick the side of your crib when falling asleep and sometimes in the middle of the night. You are a good sleeper and are back to sleeping through the night, with the cottage debachle a thing of the past. You are now a talker and you love to tell stories like your brother. You are testing sounds out and it cracks me up.
You are also a big slobber puss and love to suck you hards!
Until this month you had barely put weight on your legs but half way through the month this changed. Now you do everything in your power to get one of us to hold you in the standing position for long stretches. You lock your knees and don't want to give up your position.
You have a thing about blankets and love to cover your face with them. It makes mommy so nervous we no longer put a blanket with you in your crib (even though we used the crochet blanket). At first we thought you ended up with blankets over your face and head by accident but it has become clear that it is purposeful. You rub the blanket against your cheeks, suck one end of it and then put the other up covering your face. Your favorite blankets are the muslin ones so luckily they are very thin but mommy has to watch you whenever you are holding a blanket just to be sure.
You also have discovered mommy's hair and love to pull on it. Actually you love to pull on anything in your way, especially mommy's face. I think you just love to remind mommy of when you need your nails cut when you grab onto her face. Mommy now understands why new moms chop their hair off, because not only do you pull on it any chance you have but mommy never actually does her hair and she hates it in her face tickling her.
Speaking of tickling you love to be tickled, you giggle and squirm and it is so adorable.
What an exciting month for you and I love to see this new side of you. You are changing and growing and I love seeing you come into your own.
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