Sunday, June 6, 2010
Stuck in a downwards spiral!!
Another month and it's the same old sh*t as always. Counting days, taking tests, and then facing the sad truth. I am just so dejected! When will it be my turn? I am so sick of this kind of "living", that is not living at all. Summer is just around the corner, there are only 3 weeks left of school and I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. I am lonely and depressed and nothing seems to help. I have been forcing myself to be around other people but that just makes me feel more alone. Everyone I know has kids and being around them makes me feel pathetic. I would rather just hang out with hubby. Now I find myself sitting at home eating on the couch watching t.v more and more. I am fat for the first time in my life! I know why I am fat but I just can't motivate myself to do anything about it. The only comforts I have involve carbs.