Eating my words and everything else in sight

Well my last post seems a little ironic because I am definitely showing now. I have the bump that I have always dreamed of and it still seems surreal. I am also happy to report that my morning/afternoon/evening sickness has disappeared. It was rough for a couple of weeks but I have lived to tell. At my lowest point I peed my pants because of the intensity of my vomiting one morning. The only thing I can even remotely complain about is the fact that I am still spotting once in a very blue moon. It is really light and very sporadic but it does happen and it scares me. I think I am just going to be one of those people that doesn't believe the pregnancy is actually happening until I am holding my babies.

Why don't I look pregnant?

So I am officially 10 weeks pregnant on Wednesday and I don't even have the slightest baby bump. It worries me because if I am carrying twins you would think I would see something. I haven't had an ultrasound in 3 weeks so I am a bit worried. I guess that is just the way it is going to be all along. I will not be able to "relax" until I am holding the babies. I actually feel like I have lost some weight, if that is possible. I have been having a hard time eating (lots of vomiting) and although I feel hungry I can only seem to eat ittle amounts at a time. I have been making sure that I get some healthy food every day (mostly fruits and veggies), even though it is not a huge amount.
Just wondering if any of you have experienced the same thing. When did you ladies start showing?

Two Heart Beats!!!!

I am so overwhelmed because yesterday was literally the best day of my life. I went for my ultrasound and I was so scared I couldn't talk or focus on anything. It felt like an enternity before we got in to see the ultrasound tech and I had to remind myself to breath. I tried to "relax" during the external ultra sound and to fill myself with positive thoughts. That lasted about 2 minutes before I started to panic. It felt like the tech wasn't able to find my embabies so I freaked out a bit. I told her how nervous I was and she could sense my panic. She told me that my bladder wasn't as full as she would have liked so it was just a bit harder to see. I explained that I had a bladder infection and filling it was kind of painful and hard to do. She was very understanding and told me she would tell me as soon as she saw anything. Thankfully, within seconds she found one and then another heartbeat. It was such a relief and I just started bawling uncontrollably. She was super sweet and even held my shaking legs. Then I snuck out to get hubby for the internal ultrasound and we got to see the heartbeats together. It was an incredible moment and even hubby had tears in his eyes. Baby A's heartbeat was 146 and Baby B's was 157. I have refrained from goggling heartbeats and choose to believe when the nurse told me that everything was perfect.
I can finally breath and I can't believe this is actually happening. It has been such a long road and it feels like my dreams of having a family might actually come true. I can't help but think that I wouldn't be here without my sister. I don't know how I got so lucky to have such an amazing sister but I am truly grateful!!

Bladder Infection...Yeast Infection....Oh my

So I am in fact infected. I have a bladder infection and what seems to be a yeast infection. It is painful and I am not sure why I am not on antibiotics. I went to a walk in clinic and the doctor scared the shit out of me. He said that it can impact my pregnancy but then just told me to follow up this weekend. Instead I have made a follow up appointment at my family doctor. I want to be treated especially if it can impact my pregnancy. Yep, here I am freaking out again. Why can't anything be easy!!!

Stinging and Burning

My uterus and cervix have this new continual stinging and burning sensation. It feels like a bladder infection and it is freaking me out. I am trying not to google it but it is a really weird sensation. I would guess it was some sort of STD or Urinary tract infection but the stinging isn't as localized. It is a really weird feeling and it makes me worried that I am going to miscarry. What the heck is going on? Should I go to the hospital?

Is this morning sickness?

I feel like absolute poop! I can't drag my butt out of bed, I am dizzy and I feel extremely run down. I literally can't function. I went to a beautiful wedding last night and all I could do was sit and watch the festivities. I barely danced and I didn't get to socialize like I usually do. It will be all worth it if it is for the health of my babies (please let that be why I feel this way) but I am still worried it means something is going wrong. Especially because I had a tiny bit of blood yesterday. Seriously I mean a tiny bit (like you have to strain your eyes to see it). It happened twice over the past 24 hours but non the less it makes me nervous. I am not doing the normal Dr. Google thing I am just taking it easy and keeping my legs crossed. My ultimate fear is that it will turn into a full fledged bleed and I will have to admit myself to the psychiatric area of our local hospital.
Sorry that I haven't commented on blogs lately, I am literally too tired. I am thinking of everyone and I appreciate all of the kind posts. I will catch up on everyone very soon!!

Looking Good!

So we had our ultra sound today and it was completely nerve wracking. I was literally shaking so hard on the table that the ultra sound tech had to hold my legs still. I was full of nervous energy and it was uncontrollable. It was literally the hottest day of the year today (it broke record highs) and I was shivering with my teeth chattering. The good news is that we were able to see two gestational sacs. I was super excited and some of the nerves went away. The nurse was also able to point out a yolk sac in Baby A but wasn't able to note Baby B's yet. She said she thought she saw it beginning to form but it wasn't clear enough to be sure. I am over the moon and hoping and praying that both embabies stay where they are and continue growing and thriving. They are both measuring at 5 weeks and I love them already. Please, please, please let this really be happening. Now I have to wait 2 more weeks (yes, another 2ww) for my 7 week ultra sound where we will (please god) see the heart beats! I want this so badly I can't think straight. I am literally not functioning, all I do is think, eat, and sleep baby thoughts.