6 months

   
I seem to have drooled on my pants                  The cutest Woody and Buzz ever

Holy cow, I can't believe it has been 6 months since I had my guys.  I remember thinking how huge 6 month olds looked when I first had the boys and now they are the big guys.  This month has been a fun one and I loved getting to know my boys more this month. You now go to sleep between 6-6:30 pm and generally have one wake up (boo to the cottage ordeal or you would still be sleeping through the night) and then are up for the day between 6-7am. You eat between 6-8 of formula per feeding and two bowls of rice cereal mixed with either yummy sweet potato and yellow squash.
It has been bittersweet month but one that I will cherish.  Bitter because I know I will never get to have a newborn again and sweet because of all the exciting developments my boys have had. I have loved my boys from the moment I met them but as I get to know them more the love gets deeper because I don't just love them because they are my babies, I love who they are and the experiences we have shared.

Don't mess with my bro

Fynn

You my boy have had a great month.  You have settled down  and you have really mastered this napping thing.  Mommy actually thinks that you need more sleep than she had originally anticipated and the more naps you have the better your awake time is. You go down for naps and bedtime easily now and you sleep in the most adorable position (butt in the air), Mommy thinks that you get more sleep now because you are a tummy sleeper and when you used to sleep on your back you just weren't comfortable.  You sure do travel now in your sleep. You literally move from one side of the crib to the other.  Sometimes mommy moves you in the night because you look uncomfortable but you move right back to where you were. For some reason you like to have your face pressed against the bars or squished into your crib sheet.  It is so adorable when you wake up and your face has little wrinkles from being pressed against things. You have also learned to turn your aquarium on when you are up from your nap and sometims mommy finds you laying in your crib just watching the fish swim by.
  It is funny to think that just 2 short months ago I worried that you weren't playing in your excersaucer, now you take that thing prisoner.  You play with it with such enthusiasm and excitement.  You smile from ear to ear and you attack it.  You can't decide which toy to play with first so you just go for them all.  It is quite a site and it is impossible to watch without grinning. 
You continue to be vocal but luckily for us now it is cooing, laughing and happy sounds.  No longer do you whine (as much) and you love to tell us stories.  You screech with excitement and I love it.
We had a set back this month when we visited Grampa's cottage. Our routine was off and one night you literally didn't sleep all night.  By the time we got home we were all exhausted and we had to start getting our routine back on track.  It literally took 2 full weeks to get back to normal and now you are back to only one wake up in the night. Mommy is not in any hurry to travel again but we will make up for that in a couple of years,  Let's not even talk about "the poop saga|" that happened on the way home, I think daddy is scarred for life.
You love to stand my boy and your legs are soooo strong.  We joke that you look like a little baby bodybuilder.  You can stand on your own for about five seconds holding onto something for balance but then you tilt over. When given fingers to balance I think you could stand all day!  You are also working very hard to crawl and you can travel from one side of the play mat to the other but it isn't exactly crawling. You actually use your head in the process and it is unbelievable to see.  You don't have much interest in sitting but when mommy props you up you can sit for about 20 seconds with no assistance, then you dive forward or straighen up trying to stand up.  Mommy is quickly realizing how much trouble she is in when you and your brother can move. 
You also love to reach out and grab things and to be tickled.  You knock everything in site over and you laugh loud and hard and it is pretty hilarious!
I love you Fynn and I am so lucky to be your mom.  We have found our groove and I really get a kick out of you.  Thanks for saving most of your smiles for me, they literally fill my heart.

                                           






                       Nothing like a bath on the dock!






Fynn is Fly!


Hudson
Wow, bubba what a month for you.  You are no longer our quiet little observer.  You are fiesty and full of life and energy.  Your legs literally don't stop moving from the time you wake up. Actually you even kick the side of your crib when falling asleep and sometimes in the middle of the night.  You are a good sleeper and are back to sleeping through the night, with the cottage debachle a thing of the past.  You are now a talker and you love to tell stories like your brother.  You are testing sounds out and it cracks me up.
You are also a big slobber puss and love to suck you hards!
Until this month you had barely put weight on your legs but half way through the month this changed.  Now you do everything in your power to get one of us to hold you in the standing position for long stretches.  You lock your knees and don't want to give up your position.
You have a thing about blankets and love to cover your face with them.  It makes mommy so nervous we no longer put a blanket with you in your crib (even though we used the crochet blanket). At first we thought you ended up with blankets over your face and head by accident but it has become clear that it is purposeful.  You rub the blanket against your cheeks, suck one end of it and then put the other up covering your face. Your favorite blankets are the muslin ones so luckily they are very thin but mommy has to watch you whenever you are holding a blanket just to be sure.
You also have discovered mommy's hair and love to pull on it.  Actually you love to pull on anything in your way, especially mommy's face.  I think you just love to remind mommy of when you need your nails cut when you grab onto her face.  Mommy now understands why new moms chop their hair off, because not only do you pull on it any chance you have but mommy never actually does her hair and she hates it in her face tickling her.
Speaking of tickling you love to be tickled, you giggle and squirm and it is so adorable.
What an exciting month for you and I love to see this new side of you.  You are changing and growing and I love seeing you come into your own.

Howdy partner

They are both cute!

My boys are both adorable to me and they melt my heart with one glance. I have to say though that people (women particularily) flock to Hudson.  He has what they call the Hudson Smolder and he bats his eyelashes.  I love that he gets their attention but it makes me want Fynn to get the same attention.  Fynn doesn't give away smiles and when we are around other people he comes accross as very serious.  He saves all his smiles for me and I love it.  He literally smiles with his entire face and it lights up the room.  It still bothers me though that people go on about how cute Hudson is, without acknowledging Fynn.  When I post picture on Facebook I will have a page full of compliments on Hudson and one or two "like"s on Fynn's picture (and those are from my closests friends who I have mentioned this to before).  Even my neices and nephews say they like the way Hudson looks better. 

How can anyone not think this face is cute????

Hands Full

If you are a mother of twins you will know that you hear the comment "you must have your hands full" about 10 times a day (if you manage to leave the house). I always appreciate the concern and interest but let's face it, it can get old. Plus I never know how to respond other than to agree that it is hard but very worth it.  One of my girlfriends who is expecting twins (naturally, who knew that actually happened.....lol) just posted the best comeback on her facebook page.  I am totally going to steal it, she said when people tell her she is going to have her hands full she just responds "if you think my hands are full, you should see my heart"  I LOVE THIS!!!!!

Yep it's a Birthmark

Let me start by saying my boys are perfect to me in every way.  I love them fussy pants and all.  I think they are the cutest babies ever to be born (I know I am biased) and I wouldn't change them for the world.  So why does it bother me when people ask me about Hudson's birthmarks.  It certainly doesn't bother me that he has two strawberry birthmarks (Hemangioma), in fact they make him unique and himself so I love them.  I just hate being asked about them constantly.  I know it is such a silly complaint and there are parent's who have children with serious physical disfigurements so I don't want to minimize their struggle.  I just think it is so rude to comment on them.  I would never ask questions or comment on anyones appearance unless they asked.  Yes I compliment outfits and haircuts but I would never point out any anomalies.  That is why when I am constantly being bombarded with rude people asking what caused them and why he has them I get annoyed.  I worry that he will be self conscious of them and in turn his self esteem will be impacted.  Hubby assured me that boys aren't as sensitive and I have nothing to worry about.  I definitely don't want him to sense my annoyance when people ask because that might make him think there is something to be ashamed of I just have to note how gross I think people are (kids excluded). It even further annoys me when they tell me he is still cute despite them. Um people, they are just freakin birthmarks.  I just want to point out their flaws (big nose, fat ass etc) and ask them why they have them and what caused them.  I know I am being petty but don't mess with my kids people. 
Just had to vent. 

I am addicted to Etsy!!!!

Is anyone else addicted to Etsy?  I have had some hits and some misses but overall I like the idea of supporting small business people (women) and getting one of a kindish items. My husband dreads everytime he gets an email from Etsy because he knows I have made a purchase....lol!
Below are my latest purchases but I have bought the following: bow tie and suspender onesies, a t-shirt for hubby for Father's day that said "Daddy since 2012", a personalized key chain also for hubby that said "We love you daddy" with the boys' names and birthdate, bottle props (don't judge me please) and Grandpa t-shirts. I know it is ridiculous but I love it....lol!

Five Months (tomorrow)

I have said the same thing every month, "Time is going by too fast" but it is so true. I feel like I blinked and now my little guys are 5 months old tomorrow. I love my boys more each day and the four months old stage was so fun! I feel like the boys reached so many great milestones this month,  they are real little people now. They smile a lot and seem to be loving life.  They are happy boys who love to play and move.  They are rolling machines and are constantly wiggling and giggling.

Fynn
You are still my man in motion. You wiggle and squirm and once when mommy forgot to strap you into your bouncy chair and you almost ended up on the floor.  This taught mommy a lesson to never ever put you anywhere that you aren't safe and secure.  Your favourite place to squirm and move is in the bath tub.  Daddy says we must have had some sort of intuition to name you Fynn because you love bath time.  You smile, kick your legs, and "talk" throughout your entire bath.  We love bath-time because it is when you are most vocal (with exception of your daytime fussing).  Actually you have just started whining a lot during the day and it is a good thing you are so cute because it isn't the nicest thing to hear all day.  We are hoping this is a temporary phase but we'll keep you either way....lol.  I am happy to say that you have slept through the night a couple of times this month which was a great surprise.  Generally you are getting up for an early morning feed around 3am but you go right back to sleep so it is no big deal. 
The biggest milestones this month are that you are rolling and eating like a maniac.  You went from rolling twice ever to rolling all of the time in one day.  You literally roll from one side of the room to the other.  You have NO fear and it makes mommy kind of nervous.  You are able to roll both ways but for some reason you like to cry when you roll onto your tummy.  It is almost as if you weren't the one who made the decision to roll. I wonder if you haven't really connected the movement to the outcome.  The hardest thing is you have started to roll over in your crib.  You do this at all times of the night and day and you are never really happy with where you end up.  It has made bedtime a bit harder and nap time almost impossible (thank goodness for the swing). As for eating you are an eating machine. You love your food and you took to it right away.  So far you only eat rice cereal and sweet potato but I have a feeling you will like most foods.  You watch mommy eat and mimic me chewing.  We have also had to increase your formula intake at your feedings from 6 ounces to 7.  You are growing quickly and I guess that just means you need more fuel. 
We are still visiting grandma and grandpa's house every week but you don't seem to want to nap there.  I guess it is all of the excitement and attention but unless you are in your swing you can't settle down to a nap.  We have even taken you swimming a couple of times at grandma and grampa's house.  You seemed a bit shocked so we only stayed in the water for a very short time. Mommy was worried you were getting cold even though the water was 85 and it was over 90 outside.
It certainly has been a busy and successful month and I am excited to see what month 5 brings. 
I love you my Finicky Fynn, Findingler, Fynny Boy, Rin Tin Fynny.

Hudson
You are still my chilled little bubbah with your adorable grin.  You are relaxed and calm and generally a pretty easy baby. You are starting to talk more, especially in the morning on the change table and during bath time.  You have just started really laughing and it cracks me up everytime. Your laugh is kind of a snort and I can't get enough of it.  You are still our sleeper and you now consistently sleep "through the night", whatever that means.  You go to bed at 8pm and wake up between 6am and 8am.  You are definitely are easier to put down than your brother but you still fuss and fight your sleep at naptime.
This month you learned to roll and you too love to practice your rolling at bedtime.  You get frustrated when you can't get back on your back but once you are asleep you are a sound sleeper.  This is a good thing because you sleep right through your brother's late night/early morning bottle. 
You are our little hot box and you get sweaty very easily. Mommy hates putting you in your car seat because your back is drenched by the time we get anywhere.  Although you love visiting people and you give the best smiles to anyone and everyone.  You also seem to like grandma and grandpas pool, probably because it cools you down.
This month you had your first ear infection and mommy felt so badly for you.  We knew something was wrong when you were fussy for an entire day.  Luckily mommy was taking Fynny to get some cream for his skin because the doctor put you on antibiotics right away.  Within 2 days you were back to your happy self. 
I love you my huddy buddy, my little boy blue, my hubba bubba!

Watch what you wish for......lol

Well the past 48 hours have been a real learning experience for me.  It actually reminds me of when I met my husband.  What I mean is that life can change so quickly so don't get discouraged or feel down if things aren't going your way. I didn't meet my husband until I was 32 years old and I had figured I wouldn't get married.  Then within just over a year, I met my husband became engaged and got married. It was totally unexpected and wonderful all at the same time. 
I guess this is a big build up for a little event but it is representative of how I was feeling.  I used to think I was a super relaxed person but that soon changed after I had the boys.  Actually I would say it changed as soon as I figured out I was infertile.  It is hard to be relaxed when you have to be your own advocate and when your dealing with such a huge obstacle. Anyways, my point is I worry now way too much.  As I mentioned before in my previous post I have been comparing the boys to other babies and I don't want to be that person.
Case and point, I was worried about them not rolling over in my last post and then literally since that day they haven't stopped rolling.  They roll everywhere and all of the time. They roll from their tummy to their back and then back onto their tummy.  They are rolling machines! Not only do they roll once but they travel from one side of the room to the other while rolling.  Mommy is in trouble because she needs to up her game.  I used to be able to leave them on the couch for a second to grab a bottle from the fridge (yes I said bottle, my milk is no longer) without worrying.  That will never happen again. I will have to be super careful because we don't want to have an accident.
The reason I titled this post "Watch what you wish for" is because the boys also roll in their cribs.  This is less amusing and more frustrating.  Not only for me but especially for the boys.  They roll onto their tummies when I put them to bed and then they fuss because they want to be on their backs.  However this is the part that confuses me, they know how to roll back but don't yet when I place them onto their backs they immediatly roll over onto their stomachs and cry again.  I am soooo confused.  By the way is it still dangerous for them to stay on their stomachs because this morning when they woke up Hudson was on his side and Fynn was on his stomach? Also is there anything that I can do to stop them from rolling?  and finally am I allowed to put the bumper pads back in their cribs (because they are rolling now I often find one of their limbs through the bars in their crib)?
I just feel so silly for worrying and I am going to check myself before I do it again.  Life isn't a race  and I love these boys no matter how fast or slow they develop.