Two Boys!!!!

We had our 19 week ultra sound and I found out that my house will now be filled with sports. I will officially be out-numbered. Couldn't be happier!!!

Donor Eggs Rule!!!!

I am over the moon with excitement!!!! My blogging friend and fellow egg donor recipient Tippy (Kathleen) just got her BFP and she deserves it so much!!! She has supported me through my ups and downs and is an amazing woman! I have been waiting and watching all week and her dreams have finally come true. Thank god because I would have been very angry at the world if it didn't work out for her. Actually she might have a baseball team of children one day because she still has 6 frosties waiting for her. How life can change in only a few minutes!!! I know it is cliche but seriously you have to hold onto hope and pursue every option open to you. No it isn't easy, it definitely doesn't happen the way you dream, but it can happen and it might be happening to Tippy and I. I say might because I am still damaged from my years in the trenches and until I am holding my babies I won't be overly confident. My point is we are no longer hopeless.
I know this is a terrible thing to read for anyone still in the trenches but in my opinion Tippy and I were hopeles less than a year ago (Sorry Tippy but seriously we were in a sad state). We are both mature (Again Tippy not the nicest thing to say but hey, you are younger than me) and have useless eggs. Look at us now, we are both knocked up and hopeful that one day we will bring home a baby or two (or 7 in Tippy's case). I know I could be cursing myself but I am just so happy to have any hope.
Anyways, a big congrats to Tippy and I hope our babies might meet one day. I would love for you to go and congratulate Tippy yourselves but I am pretty sure she went private. Although you could give it a try at tippyandtidy.blogspot.com

Shocking and Sad News

I am sitting here bawling my eyes out thinking of the pain one of my fellow blogger friends is going through. She has lost her beautiful twins at 20 weeks gestation. It just isn't fair. She has been so supportive to me in all of the ups and downs of my IVF journey and she deserves all the love and support we can give her. It is so unfair that we jump through all of the hoops of IVF and infertility and finally get pregnant and then we still have to face these heartbreaking loses. Please, please lend her some support at alissa-schillinger.blogspot.com

Eating my words and everything else in sight

Well my last post seems a little ironic because I am definitely showing now. I have the bump that I have always dreamed of and it still seems surreal. I am also happy to report that my morning/afternoon/evening sickness has disappeared. It was rough for a couple of weeks but I have lived to tell. At my lowest point I peed my pants because of the intensity of my vomiting one morning. The only thing I can even remotely complain about is the fact that I am still spotting once in a very blue moon. It is really light and very sporadic but it does happen and it scares me. I think I am just going to be one of those people that doesn't believe the pregnancy is actually happening until I am holding my babies.

Why don't I look pregnant?

So I am officially 10 weeks pregnant on Wednesday and I don't even have the slightest baby bump. It worries me because if I am carrying twins you would think I would see something. I haven't had an ultrasound in 3 weeks so I am a bit worried. I guess that is just the way it is going to be all along. I will not be able to "relax" until I am holding the babies. I actually feel like I have lost some weight, if that is possible. I have been having a hard time eating (lots of vomiting) and although I feel hungry I can only seem to eat ittle amounts at a time. I have been making sure that I get some healthy food every day (mostly fruits and veggies), even though it is not a huge amount.
Just wondering if any of you have experienced the same thing. When did you ladies start showing?

Two Heart Beats!!!!

I am so overwhelmed because yesterday was literally the best day of my life. I went for my ultrasound and I was so scared I couldn't talk or focus on anything. It felt like an enternity before we got in to see the ultrasound tech and I had to remind myself to breath. I tried to "relax" during the external ultra sound and to fill myself with positive thoughts. That lasted about 2 minutes before I started to panic. It felt like the tech wasn't able to find my embabies so I freaked out a bit. I told her how nervous I was and she could sense my panic. She told me that my bladder wasn't as full as she would have liked so it was just a bit harder to see. I explained that I had a bladder infection and filling it was kind of painful and hard to do. She was very understanding and told me she would tell me as soon as she saw anything. Thankfully, within seconds she found one and then another heartbeat. It was such a relief and I just started bawling uncontrollably. She was super sweet and even held my shaking legs. Then I snuck out to get hubby for the internal ultrasound and we got to see the heartbeats together. It was an incredible moment and even hubby had tears in his eyes. Baby A's heartbeat was 146 and Baby B's was 157. I have refrained from goggling heartbeats and choose to believe when the nurse told me that everything was perfect.
I can finally breath and I can't believe this is actually happening. It has been such a long road and it feels like my dreams of having a family might actually come true. I can't help but think that I wouldn't be here without my sister. I don't know how I got so lucky to have such an amazing sister but I am truly grateful!!

Bladder Infection...Yeast Infection....Oh my

So I am in fact infected. I have a bladder infection and what seems to be a yeast infection. It is painful and I am not sure why I am not on antibiotics. I went to a walk in clinic and the doctor scared the shit out of me. He said that it can impact my pregnancy but then just told me to follow up this weekend. Instead I have made a follow up appointment at my family doctor. I want to be treated especially if it can impact my pregnancy. Yep, here I am freaking out again. Why can't anything be easy!!!