I need success stories!!!

I am looking for some cheering up and who better to ask then my trusty bloggy friends. I am looking for success stories of people who did 3dt but didn't have any embies make it to freeze. I know this is a long shot but I am hoping someone out there prevailed in this situation. Furthermore, I am secretly hoping the embies that were transferred where less than perfect (a girl can dream can't she).I have read about a ton of people who have gotten their BFP with Day 5 blasts and none to freeze but I have yet to come accross anyone in the same boat as me that got a BFP.

Discouraging news!

Our 4 embies that were in the lab are not doing well. Two have arrested and the others have not made it to the blast stage. The lab techs are going to give them until tomorrow to get to the blast stage but don't seem hopeful. This is so discouraging because if they couldn't make it to blast then I am assuming that my little embies inside of me are struggling too. I am bummed and feeling a bit hopeless. Trying to keep my head up but wondering what comes next!

One day down 13 to go!!

I need to step away from the computer I am obsessed. I have found some information that says that 9 cells are too many for day 3 and others that say they are absolutley fine. I am choosing to believe the positive comments and feeling good about my 2 embryos. I have found at least 4 people who have had a successful pregnancy from a 9 celled embryo so it reassures me. Other than that the other thing I am obsessing about was when the dr sai thdat he would let me put in the third, 4 cell embryo because I am not a good candidate for multiples. What the heck does that mean? I know I have to get past the comment and honestly we would be really happy with a singleton (I think that goes without saying) but I am interpreting it as meaning that he didn't think our embies were good. Other than that nagging thought I am in a good place and feeling positive. I am relaxed and laying low. I am excited and nervous to hear if our other embies make it to freeze. We find out Tuesday morning and the lab technition told us not to call before that because she would have no information for us.

An interesting and hopeful day.

Today we went to our fertility clinic wanting to discuss if we were going to go ahead with the 3 day transfer today or if we were able to wait and to do a 5 day transfer. Plus we wanted to make an informed decision on how many embryos to transfer. We arrived and my bladder was extremely full. Last time I went for my transfer it wasn't full so I made sure to wake up early and drink a load of water. When we got there I was ready to go. I have never ever had such a full bladder in my entire life. It would have been manageable if the ultra sound tech hadn't shown up an hour late. I literally had shooting pains down my back and I couldn't even sit down. I told the nurse the pain I was in and she didn't react (I am sure they hear that all of the time). Finally after I begged her to allow me to release a little bit of urine she relented (I guess because it had been an hour of waiting) and I headed to the bathroom. I only let myself pee a tiny bit and it obviously wasn't enough. By the time the ultra sound tech finally arrived I was back in a terrible state. They insisted that I have an external ultra sound to verify that it was indeed full before I realease any more urine and when they realized I was about to burst they allowed me to go back to the bathroom and fill a cup full. Oh sweet, sweet relief! I could finally lie down properly and relax to some extent. Although I do believe it put my body through unecessary traumaat wouldn impact the transfer. I didn't know that you could feel sick because you had to pee. So after I relieved myself we waited for someone to come and discuss if we were allowed to come back on Day 5. I seemed weird that they had me change into a hospital gown, have G change into his surgical outfit, and conduct an ultra sound before the decision had been made. It always seems like they are saying things to pacify us instead of working with us. Although nobody came to discuss the possiblility of a 5 day transfer like we had been promised, I am at peace with our 3 day transfer. Our embies had progressed some from yesterday but I guess they were not exactly what we had first anticipated. We had one embryo that was a 10 cell but was only rated a 3, we had one 9 cell that was rated 1.5, one 8 cell that was rated closer to a 2, one 6 cell that was rated a 1.5, a 5 cell that was rated a 2, and two 4 celled that were rated 2.5. We decided to transfer 3 embryos (wow, I never thought we would do that) because the dr said we were not likely candidates for a multiple pregnancy. I actually don't get why they don't think we could possible have a multiple pregnancy but I went along with it because I wanted to maximize my chances. We decided to transfer the 9 cell, the 8 cell, and one of the little 4 cells. They advised us against the 10 cell because they thought it was lacking somehow and they wouldn't advise us to put the 6 cell in with the others we chose (to reduce the chances of multiples)to throw one of the 4 celled embies in. It is very likely they will arrest by day 5 and won't make it to freezing so why not. The transfer was very painful,and I was sweating and dizzy during the entire process. This was very different from last time and the only thing I can attribute it to is the bladder debaucle. I thought I was going to faint for sure because the pain was ridiculous. I tried my best not to move to make sure that the doctor didn't cause any trauma to the endometrium because of my wiggling. He never told me to stop moving but I know I was rocking in the stirups. He did wait for a long time and told me that he was waiting for things to run clear before he moved out. He said he didn't want to drag anything out. What the heck does that mean? There is nothing I can do about all of this so I will let go of it and believe everything went fine.
Anyways, here we are starting our 2 ww and for the most part I feel great! I feel like there might have been some trauma but I have no pain now so I am going to believe the trauma was outside of my uterus. I am focusing on the positive and truly hoping this works. My sister has 3 beautiful children from the same eggs as I am using this information to make me hopeful that this will work.

More like 5

So they called today and said we had 7 and that we are having a 3 day transfer. I was suprised because I was told that as long as we had 5 we would be able to wait until Monday. I called and inquired and they made the decision because 2 look like they aren't going to make it. It is scary how the numbers are dwindling away. Now I am wondering if we will have any frosties after all. At this moment I can seriously understand why octomom put all of her embies in. I want to transfer all 7 of mine and I know that it isn't rational but I seriously wish I could. I know that it is dangerous and it is illogical it is just that I can't handle any more loss. Seriously, how do you go from 16 eggs to potentially 5 embryos, it is so scary!

Down to 7!

I don't think my heart can handle any more loss. I am celebrating that we have 7 because it is obviously the most we have had but I am still curious as to why we started out with 16 eggs and only have 7 embryos. Last time I only retrieved 2 eggs and we got 2 embryos so I guess that adds to the shock value.
I am doing my best to keep my eye on the prize and to remember that all we need is one good egg and that if we have 7 by day 5 then that still gives us a couple of frosties. We still haven't heard if we will be doing a day 3 or day 5 transfer. Fingers crossed that we can go to 5 days! By the way I am still working on hubby to transfer 3 embryos instead of 2 because I just want this to work so badly!

Update

Well what a whirlwind! It has been a very dramatic 24 hours. Let me start by saying that the egg retrieval was awesome and I am so happy that I went in the room with my sister and was a part of it. It was truly moving seeing the eggs being retrieved and I will remember it for a very long time. Initially I didn't want to go in because I didn't want to invade her privacy but it was so incredible to see everything go down that I am so happy the nurse encouraged me to go in. So the results of her egg retrieval are phenomenal. They were able to retrieve 16 eggs!!! As my sister says "not bad for a 38 year old". We were over the moon and my sister is very sore and exhausted. I had her kids for the day, sent her for a massage and then went to bed by 8pm. It was an absolutely incredible day!
The lab called today with our fertilization results and I am happy to say that 9 eggs fertilized. To be 100% honest it is less than I expected after we retrieved 16 eggs but still fabulous. Being an infertile I am really curious why the fertilization percentage is lower than anticipated but 9 is more than I could have hoped for or dreamed of.I am wondering if some of the eggs weren't mature or if hubby should have abstained longer than he did. Gosh, why do I torture myself. Anyways, now the wait is on to see how many of the eggs will divide and to determine if we will do a 3 day or 5 day transfer. I have to admit that my feelings have changed a bit at this point. I want the embies to make it so badly that I am nervous about waiting for 5 days. Please everyone send me your positive vibes for our 9 little embies!!!